2025-06-02

I cried whenever I saw the number 22 bus. It's the one you used to take home, and I kept looking at the windows, hoping maybe you'd be there.

I went to CF Pacific Mall a lot, especially on weekends, because I knew you liked shopping there. And I guess some part of me hoped we might run into each other again, just by chance.

The Moment That Shifted Things

I often looked at you working at Tim Hortons, from across the window. And that night, you called and told me to move on. You said you already had.

That moment broke me more than I expected.

What If?

Honestly, I don't know what I would do if you ever came back. My heart would probably say yes right away. But my head is still stuck in the moment we said goodbye, still frozen in the trauma of that ending.

Mixed Emotions

When I heard you went on a date after returning from India, even though you once said we'd hang out... I didn't know how to handle that. I didn't hate you. I just didn't know what to feel. I know you moved on. Because of the things I have done....

A Silent Wish

When I didn't get the Amazon internship, the thing that hurt most wasn't the rejection itself. It was losing the chance to show you that I had grown, that I had become someone strong and capable. And to say it with a smile.

Because deep down, I still wanted you to be proud of me. I still wanted you to be mine.

Lost in Memories

I know I lost my way for a while. I failed at studying. I failed at getting an internship. I avoided everything. And everywhere I went, there were memories of you.

I stopped at places where I thought I might see you. Not because I couldn't let go, but because I still missed you in a way I couldn't explain.

My Truth

So I'm not saying any of this to make you feel guilty. And I'm not asking for anything from you.

I just wanted you to know that I loved you deeply. And a part of me still does.

A New Path

But now I'm learning to be better, focusing on my own growth and finding my way again. Just like what you said. I'm working on building a life I can be proud of, and I genuinely hope you're finding happiness and fulfillment on your journey too. My wish for you is all the best, wherever your path leads.

But one day, if you miss me by any chance, message me. Okay?

I will always be there, but when you do…

you'll find a version of me that has grown, matured, and healed.

My Instagram will always be open for you — @daehyung.kwak

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2025-06-05

I'm still learning how to control my emotions and not let them dictate my actions.

I want to contact you right now, but I also need to respect your space and feelings.

Still crying to control how much I miss you. But one day, I can be more mature. Like what you said.

2025-06-14

I had busy days filled with work and self-reflection. But why do I keep thinking about you?

I went to the therapy session, but it didn't help much... I still feel lost without you.

I thought I was slowly moving on. But here I am, still stuck in the past. I want to hold you close and never let go.

I'm not talking to you, because I believe giving space is important for you... But if you allow me to, I'll always be here for you.

2025-06-15

Now I don't find the purpose of working at starbucks. The primary motivation of working there was to give you daily drinks but now it feels empty without you.

I don't know... I regret everything...

But I know I have to keep going. I have to keep working on myself, even if it hurts.

Can I reach out to you when I'm ready?

2025-06-18

I still miss you... But now I miss you as a best friend. I miss that zubi zubi duba duba...

I stopped crying... But there's that empty feeling inside my heart still... I'm not going to move on... Just wait until you will be ready too

Also I really want to apologize the thing I have done...